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#212371 - 03/22/08 10:07 PM I finally feel loved
dancr6 Offline
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Registered: 12/02/07
Posts: 383
Loc: georgia
I’m sorry that you couldn’t stand me
I felt that you “hated my guts”
if I could have been a better boy
you might not have gone so nuts

you’d have loved me more with a caring heart
given me all that I need
you wouldn’t have denied me parental love
or relished in watching me bleed

I was a marvelous child
not that you ever knew
and was loved by whomever I met
but I couldn’t return what I had not yet learned
thanks to you and the pattern you set

no matter how loving others thought that I was
and how grateful they were for my heart
I remained in my world loving others for sure
barely showing them lest they would start
to see what you saw, which repulsed you I guess,
and leave me to play the same part
of the child no one wanted
isolated and lost
trying hard to not “upset the cart”

your gone now and yet
you have minor control
of the way that I wander about
but I live for myself loving family and friends
getting better without any doubt
and I finally feel loved,
I FINALLY...... FEEL....... LOVED!!!

_________________________
I'm a freeman now, his authority's dead
no pain monger lies in my comfortable bed!

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#212432 - 03/23/08 07:32 AM Re: I finally feel loved [Re: dancr6]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Dan,

Feeling lovable, and loved, is such a difficult thing for a survivor and I'm glad you have that. It's going to be such a precious asset and a valuable tool in your recovery.

Much love,
Larry

_________________________
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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#212444 - 03/23/08 09:43 AM Re: I finally feel loved [Re: roadrunner]
dancr6 Offline
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Registered: 12/02/07
Posts: 383
Loc: georgia
Thanks Larry, I hope your Easter experience allowed you to feel love too. It sounded as if it might have a serious stress potential.

Dan

_________________________
I'm a freeman now, his authority's dead
no pain monger lies in my comfortable bed!

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