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#212017 - 03/21/08 12:00 AM I crushed an angel
kellticwarrior Offline
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Registered: 03/10/08
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Loc: vancouver,b.c.,canada
I saw an angel flying by my door
i saw her beauty and couldn't look away
i asked her to come there and land upon my floor
she was so radiant, i was lost for words to say

i convinced her to stop flying and live there by my side
but angels aren't meant for normal life
they're meant to be free and flying high

she tried to love me, and she did so for a while
we danced and sang and laughed and cried
and she graced me with her lovely smile.

she wanted love too, and that i could not give
she wanted a piece of me that just wasn't there
someone had stolen it from me, not far from where i lived
she said she needed love, and that this just wasn't fair

now she wants to fly away, and i'm afraid to let her go
she is so beautiful that i cannot hold her down
just the thought of this sends fire through my soul
but if i hold on to tight, i will tear her silky gown.

i saw an angel flying by my door
she was so beautful, but i crushed her,
and now she is no more

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Love heals everything

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#212027 - 03/21/08 12:34 AM Re: I crushed an angel [Re: kellticwarrior]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Kelly,

It's a delicate problem: do we tell the significant other in our lives, or do we take the risk that our issues will be read in the wrong way and end with the collapse of the relationship?

I think we all have to answer this in our own way and according to our own circumstances. You don't owe a girlfriend the details about your abuse history; none of us do. But at some point we do have to begin opening up and trusting the fact that we are not to blame for what was done to us. When can we do that? And with whom? Unfortunately only we ourselves can answer that. If you are in therapy this would be a great subject to raise with your T.

Much love,
Larry

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Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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#212164 - 03/21/08 07:02 PM Re: I crushed an angel [Re: kellticwarrior]
pufferfish Offline
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Registered: 02/26/08
Posts: 6872
Loc: USA
When we got married, I promised myself that I would never show anger toward her.

However, I had a big big problem when the amnesia of my abuse broke up. I lost perspective and started chewing her out.

Somehow a lot of the anger got spilled on her. Now she is gone. I am so sorry.

Sob, sob, sob


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