I had a strangely brilliant day dream today. I was in the shower, and it's one of these weird rooted principles of mine that i only have really long showers, partly to do with the fact that we could never afford the gas bill when i was younger so the water was always really cold but i used to sit there for as long as i could anyway and focus on warm things and would sometimes wear a t-shirt, although i never would let my parents know that because i knew that they would probably feel upset with themselves if they knew that i was that cold. Anyway, for that reason, and because my house was always pretty full-so that the shower was only the ever quiet place, i always have long showers. (and because i cant remember why it never occurred to me to only have really quick showers if the water was cold)
But that's not what i suppose to be talking about. So i don't really know why but i'm still in the habit of sitting down and kind of curling up in the shower and i just kind of lose myself in thought. Anyway, so i was daydreaming that i was in university and i found out that there was going to be an MS meeting in my university! so i made some excuse to my friends and i attended the meeting, and somehow i could recognise the speakers, and somehow they could recognise me, and it was you guys! you were doing the talks, and it all felt so free, and we all new eachothers real names but we also new eachothers usernames here on the site and there was something really connecting about that, so we were shaking hands and it just felt so free! I'm going to start sounding like i'm quoting wizard of Oz if i'm not careful "and you were there, and you were there" lol. Anyway, i shook your hand Roger (freedom49) and you winked at me and i havent been able to stop smiling since, i don't know what it is about a wink and even though you didn't really do it i still want to thank you anyway lol (yes i know i'm sounding weird now lol).
This daydream really does open my eyes to the benefits of things like the conferences and weekend retreats that are talked about sometimes on here.
So thanks everybody, i think this is one of these moments where i'm actually realising without any doubt that we are not alone in this.
"...until lambs become lions"
I love you, little lewis, and i will never leave you. We are the same. You brighten my day, and i will make sure that i brighten yours. Hugs and kisses.