Hey guys, it's Jeremy here. I've been lurking from time to time, but had trouble articulating anything, so I've kept quiet.
629 registered members! Wow!
And yet the forums have been awfully quiet. A few people are posting, but there haven't been much in the way of responses. I'm guilty of it, too, so I'm not making any judgements.
Anyway, I wanted to try to kick start some energy back into the Forums. There are a whole lot of new folks, that don't feel comfortable posting yet, so what can we do to make them feel more a part of being here?
And what about those of us who have been around for more than a few months? How is everyone doing?
I guess I can give an update on my life. Since my original revelation in July, and 2nd clue from Sept 10 that got overshadowed for obvious reasons, I don't have any new insights into my past. I've got lots of questions, but still nothing concrete.
Most of the questions come up when I'm with my SO. She and I have been together for 3 months (celebrated last Friday). She knows everything that I do, and she is extremely supportive of me. She also is an avid supporter of my crossdressing. It's like all my dreams come true. I don't have to pretend or hide anything. But that doesn't mean that there aren't things I do that mystify me.
The falling asleep thing has got to be the worst. It's still an problem, but our communication is pretty good, so she doesn't get mad like she did before. More troubling, though, was falling asleep at the wheel 2 days ago, as I was pulling off the road, since I felt sleepy. Fortunately, there were no other cars nearby, and going up on the curb didn't seem to do any damage to my car. I swerved a bit, but got off the road safely (now that the adrenaline boost was there to keep my awake).
I saw my therapist yesterday. We've seen each other only a handful of times since July, and I've been questioning the usefulness of our sessions. She gave me the name of a Psychologist in nearby Huntington Beach that runs a group for male SA, so I've got more resources to draw from. After getting the initial frustrations out, we had a really good session. However, she is reluctant to say that I was accually abused, since I don't have any concrete memory of it. She's been diplomatic ("I'm not saying you weren't") but she has been exploring more mundane causes.
Anyway, that pretty much covers the basics for me. I hope that there is something hopeful to report from the rest of you. As many terrible things have occurred in the past, remember that the future hasn't been written yet, and we have a hand in how it goes.
We're in this together.
We're in this together. - Nine Inch Nails