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#210055 - 03/11/08 10:48 AM I Seek
FormerTexan Offline
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Registered: 09/12/04
Posts: 11187
Loc: Denver, CO
I'm not sure if I wrote this to my dad or to a coworker, but I guess either way there's a need unfilled from so long ago.

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I seek to see you standing close by
I want to be near you but Im too shy
Im this little boy who needs your attention
Please just glance in my direction

I seek the parts I identify with most
A boy child whos hurting and needs a good host
Loneliness is not what I seek this day
Your touch is what I need, come what may

Pick me up and hold me tight
Bond with me in the way thats right
Clutch me with your arms and goodness
Take this kid who is such a mess

Look at me with approval strong
Love me like I did no wrong
Smile at me like I have worth
Hold me like a father at my birth

I seek your hand to pull me near
I see in you a heart so dear
I want you take me in embrace
And affirm my boyhood face-to-face

My needs are unfilled every day
These thoughts to you I long to say
Be my dad and not a stranger
Keep me safe and out of danger


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List of things ain't nobody got time for:

1. That


If I could meet myself as a boy...

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#210060 - 03/11/08 11:10 AM Re: I Seek [Re: FormerTexan]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Andy,

Those are needs every boy has - such important needs. Every boy gets scared and stumbles and needs safe men in his life to do exactly what you say - affirm his boyhood and be there for him when he is worried, confused or hurt.

You had every right to have these needs filled, and to hurt about it now when you look back and see it wasn't so. That was wrong. I don't know what else to say, my friend, except to say I'm glad you can talk about it. Little Andy needs to hear how you feel about this.

Much love,
Larry

_________________________
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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#210066 - 03/11/08 11:22 AM Re: I Seek [Re: roadrunner]
EGL Offline
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Registered: 06/19/04
Posts: 7821
Hi Andy,

What a great poem, and it's one that could have been spoken by myself and many others here who had (and still have) a void in their life when it comes to a father. Regrettably, there were those who came along and filled that void in really bad ways, when all you, I, and others, were wanting is for a father to be what he should have been to his son.

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Eddie

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#216192 - 04/07/08 03:03 PM Re: I Seek [Re: EGL]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Andy,

After a month this one still tears me up. However things are going with your Dad, I hope you find the peace that you seek. You deserve it - you always have.

Much love,
Larry

_________________________
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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