I wrote a long post- deleted it
in conclusion- i'm not going to let this beat me, i am going to win, because i don't lose
i can't sleep, then i won't sleep
i am stressed, so i'll work and plan
feelings are complicated, so i'll write
havent time to write, well i can't sleep anyway, so that gives me time
i have to resolve feelings, because i cant keep it in anymore
next week is going to be hell, never could imagine a busier more torturous week, so i'll cry at night, i'm allowed to cry, i can cry too you know, it doesn't mean i'm losing, i'll show everybody one day that i'm doing things the right way, tell people someday the things i feel, and maybe someday somebody can be proud of me, and then i can help people too
"...until lambs become lions"
I love you, little lewis, and i will never leave you. We are the same. You brighten my day, and i will make sure that i brighten yours. Hugs and kisses.