I guess I posted here about 2 years ago, then because of the legal system, decided best to withdraw my posts.
So 30 months after reporting my "experience" to the Police, we start the Trial in just over a month.
At this time I wonder if justice will be served, if the fact that my entire family will be giving evidence for something they never knew was happening way back then to their "youngest boy" or "brother' is worth the last 2.5 years.
The Police have been very thorough for investigating stuff that happened over 38 years ago, and I guess my parents, brothers, nephews and nieces have all been as supportive as they can,.. but of course we can not "talk" about it till after the trial.
I am as flat as a tack today (Aussie term for depressed or "down"), and have been for a fair while now.
I will not let my family know this, so always put on as bright voice or happy face as I can when we need to talk or meet.
Will this end after the trial? Will I get back to being a "happy me"? I do not know.
Yes I have survived, but felt so so guilty when I discovered that the perp kept going for years after he "finished" with me.
So hopefully "healing" will happen or a "line in the sand" will be drawn after the court case finishes, whatever the outcome of the trial?
I guess I finally stood up and said "this should not happen, this should not have happened to me, it should not have kept happening decades after it happened to me!!" and to those it did happen to after me... sincere apologies that back then, "we did not talk about such things".. such a lame excuse now.. but I guess as young kid back then, felt I could lose family and friends even to mention that sort of thing..
All the best guys, keep surviving and thriving and helping others..