Missing the loneliness ... I remember something like that as therapy was allowing me to heal and gradually jettison the host of bad feelings I had about being me.
It astonished me to discover that sometimes I missed this or that feeling. How could that be? Part of the answer is that these feelings have been with us so long we have accepted them as part of the "real me". So when they are gone we feel strange and uncomfortable.
But that passes, Dan. We do get to the point where we can actually enjoy the reality that we never deserved any of those bad feelings in the first place.
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me. (Woody Guthrie)