It's sad that you're needin so many drugs just to get through it, but I am glad that you've seen a Therapist or Phychiatrist. Can you tell us a little about that? Do you still see them?
I hope you're reading around a bit here, especially the Survivor Stories if you have the stomach for it cause some of it is really bad and some of it is not as bad, but it's all bad. See if you can figure out why.
And then ask yourself if your situation is bad. If it is, there is help.
Thinking of you,
"That which does not kill us, surely makes us stonger." - Neitsche