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#205150 - 02/14/08 10:55 AM The Diseased Little Cage
JustScott Offline
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Registered: 01/27/08
Posts: 2572
Deep in my soul there's a hole with a cage
A cage that is filled with hate and anger and rage

I ponder in thought on why it is there
Thinking on it causes me quite a scare

The thing about cages is that things can get out
The festering from within can ooze all about

Tainting my heart, raping and pillaging my soul
I realize I have to release it, if I want to be whole

I leap up on top full of trepidation and fear
Knowing what I have to do, my path is clear

I pull and tug and yank, twist, and strain
My arms grow weary, tired, and full of pain

Then suddenly the lid comes off with a pop
As my heart and mind screams out for me to stop

But the lid is off, that thing is coming out
It wraps its tendrils around me, and I cannot shout

As it squeezes me, and brings me near to death
I struggle painfully, gasping for life's breath

Unthinkably, somehow out goes a fearful moan
Again I manage a louder, tearful groan

The beasts grasp begins to loosen, it begins to shiver
And now I'm able to move, to shake, and even to quiver

It's power is lessened, it is breaking, it can no longer take hold
But I must always be wary, lest it deceive me back into it's fold

I walk back to the cage and look deep inside
I find a little scared boy, still trying to hide

I pick him up and hold him near
Together we journey, shedding our fear



Edited by JustScott (02/14/08 01:58 PM)

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#205154 - 02/14/08 11:16 AM Re: The Diseased Little Cage [Re: JustScott]
Freedom49 Offline
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Registered: 12/30/07
Posts: 2723
Loc: Washington State
Wow Scott that is beautiful. Good ending to. I have watched you move toward that cage since you have been coming here and I see a stronger Scott everyday. You have voiced your soul here and the future is bright. Not here yet but getting brigher all the time. Good progress Scott.
Love ya


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#205653 - 02/17/08 08:50 AM Re: The Diseased Little Cage [Re: Freedom49]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Scott,

I really love this one and the whole idea that the cage hold the boy and not a beast is so wonderful. Thanks for sharing this with us.

Much love,
Larry

_________________________
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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#206027 - 02/19/08 01:18 AM Re: The Diseased Little Cage [Re: roadrunner]
JustScott Offline
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Registered: 01/27/08
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I shared this with my therapist. She had me read it, which put me off my game right away. I started falling apart after reading the title. I managed to get through it though.

I remember in high school having teachers ask us to try and figure out what a writer or poet meant when they wrote. I always felt that was crap to try and figure out, as how can anyone truly know what they meant? I've found this to be even true for this poem, and I wrote it! As I read it now and again, it takes on new and deeper meanings even for me. What I had in mind when I wrote it, is not what it means to me now. Discussing it and those new ideas with my therapist brought out allot. Things I have never shared with anyone. That session was hell! But at the same time it was awesome.

I'm actually nervous about my next session on wednesday, as we didn't have time to discuss everything that was shared.


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#206057 - 02/19/08 04:18 AM Re: The Diseased Little Cage [Re: JustScott]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
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Scott,

I have always told my students that it's the mark of a good poem if it can be read in different ways by different people, depending on what they themselves bring to their reading of the poem.

It doesn't surprise me at all that you are seeing different things in you poem now. You have probably changed in many ways and are looking at it with very different ideas and expectations.

Much love,
Larry

_________________________
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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#206070 - 02/19/08 05:01 AM Re: The Diseased Little Cage [Re: roadrunner]
John Ireland Offline
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Registered: 11/12/02
Posts: 155
Loc: Chicago
one day YOU WILL dissolve all the bars of your "diseased little cage"... just having "little"
in your title tells me that you are on your way to never BEing in that cell that others forced you in...

& after releasing myself from my own cell of torutred scars i KNOW YOU WILL DISSOVE YOURS... :):):)

you'll NEVER walk alone!!! :):):)

always dream~~~dare~~~dive dude, john :):):)


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