Thanks for your responses ...
Feel free to tell me I am full of crap LOL After a lifetime of not questioning stuff I am full of nothing but lately (questions not crap, but I suppose that's debatable too LOL)
I don't question if I am gay or straight, because right now I am nothing, sure I am attracted to some men but I do not act on it, no label for that except for sad bastard LOL
Once upon a time, in a drugged and boozed euphoric state it didn't matter where the sex came from, just as long as it did & I didn't have to think about.
You are right, there are lots of posts about this, I've read them all, I've taken what I can from them, still got questions though, like why am I attracted to scary men , am I in some way looking to re-create, am I just looking for someone to denigrate me or is it that I am looking for the right thing in the wrong place.
I know this makes no sense to someone who has already settled their mind but as I said I am questioning everything lately. My goal is to once again have a healthy sex live, but I don't need to wake up the next morning thinking about why someone is in my bed (see I am ready, I'm willing to let them stay the night already LOL).
Maybe I should forget these questions and work on acceptance, the need to accept what is just because it is.
Edited by arronb (02/18/08 09:55 AM)