Hi blue swan,
I'm glad to hear from you! Actually, I've been quite concerned about you! Really.
every time i see him i feel weak and frighted. is this normal?
Yes! Of course! I would be very, very frightened to be around someone who abused me sexually. Terrified even. Blue swan, I really hope you can take some steps to protect yourself. Sexual abuse is a serious thing. No one is lucky to have been abused sexually. Many people will tell themselves that is wasn't so bad, it's over so I'll just forget about it, I shouldn't create a problem by telling people but that is not true. I really hope you can tell people that can help you. And certainly believe you. Why do you say the police make you look bad? They should help protect you, and not do something to make things harder. And have you talked to your mom?
I'm curious how old you are. We have a wide range of ages here.
Thanks for talking more here. I hope it's helpful. I hope you can tell us more. I'll be thinking of you, and wishing you well.