Thank you for the song- it really hit home. I can't say I've never thought of leaving. But after all this time, I believe there's something real here. Something genuine that you have to look alittle harder to find alot of the time, buried under the effects of the csa. It's exhausting sometimes, because as the time goes on, more issues surface and I have to fight harder and harder not to lose him to this.
I do wish I could get him to come on this site and to post here. I think it would help him tremendously to connect with others who are going through much the same thing. At this point, he refuses to read anything on the subject. He's afraid of what it might say. (Does that make sense?)
Again, I appreciate all the support from everyone here. I'm continuing to take things day by day. I recently got a promotion at work and it serves as a distraction from alot of this right now, because I never bring these issues to work with me. Believe me, it's not an easy thing. I once told him that it was like he handed me this huge cinder block and said, "Here, hold this for me." and walked away.