Way to go Dude! You'll be glad you took this step. The hardest part of seeing a therapist was getting there the first time. Once I was there, I couldn't stop myself. Of course, everyone is different, but I went there with the mindset that this person was there to listen to me and could help me. At the time, the floodgates were open so to speak, and I couldn't hold back any longer. It may be different for you. What I did notice, after my next visit, was that he did make me feel safe and comfortable enough to discuss my issues. I'm not totally convinced that this guy is the right one for me, but at least I'm not as afraid of talking to a professional anymore.
As for the anti-depressants, I've been on Paxil for 10 years. They made me "feel" better, but they did nothing for healing. I needed help with that. I didn't get that help when I first went on them. And, now that I've been on them for so long, getting off them is potentially worse than why I went on them in the first place. Because of the intense emotional upheaval of trying to deal with my abuse, I don't really think they're doing a damn thing for me right now. My doctor wanted to increase my dosage (which I refused) because I don't want to have a false sense of feeling "better". I need to know that I'm working through the pain, the shame, the self-loathing, the sadness, the anger, and every other feeling I have. You're therapist will help you make a decision that is in YOUR best interests. Allow her to help you make that decision.
Again, congratulations on finding a therapist. It's another step forward to a healed you.
Take care and good luck with your first session,