i dont care what anyone says, I still would of chosen my abuser to be f rather than m, that's just how it is and nothing is going to change that...
That is quite fine, and I do not think anyone here is trying to change you. I would have chose a lot things different in my abuse if I could have 'choice' of it. But what you do not seem to see is that in how you are presenting this, you are rather being 'dismissive' of a group of men here who are in as much pain and difficulty in healing as you yourself is. It is just my opinion, and I am not known here to be rude or thoughtless, but it seem like your first phrase rather speak for everything about you we have seen here. You do not seem to care what anyone else think, period. I am sorry that you have been abused, and you are in pain here. But to come here and post things, then continue the threads only to be argumentative with everyone else who replies, does not seem like very healthy or helpful way of healing.
Yes, I know I am being 'assuming' and rude, but it is how I have felt this person's posts to be. And it is sad thing that I do not think I am speaking only for myself in that there is people here feeling disrespected by you, and that is just not acceptable at this site. New people are granted some space for perhaps being in more immediate pain and not knowing fully how this site works. But disrespect for other members here, and continuing arguing over that fact in spite that several members have voiced that, puts in 'red flags' to me.
I wish to you good luck, none, but I think this will be my last time in responding to you.