and Sacred Sage
Let me first say welcome to MS, I'm sorry you need this place, but I'm glad you guys found this place.
I hope you will take the steps you need to learn some great wisdom from the people on this site. Many of us have been through what you are dealing with. One of the biggest problems for most of us is trust.
I know it's hard to see this right now, but I promise it will get better the more you talk about it. Take your time, this whole thing we call recovery is not a race. Talk and ask questions at your own pace, but please do stay around. Just know that many of us do understand.
I also found it very difficult to trust people. As I have begun to share my story here, and now in "real" life, it's amazing how much it helps. The crushing weight of keeping a secret is so crippling, that for many years, I never thought I would be free of my demons. When I began to tell my story, I could physically feel the stress and weight lift off my shoulders. Check out my post... http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=197654&page=0&fpart=1
It does take an amount of trust to share, but remember if you start here it is easier. No one knows you here, so just talk (type) and let it all out. After you see that many guys will totally understand your feelings, then maybe it will become easier in the "real" world to begin talking.Important
, a personal note to you. I am sure you have noticed, I have left off the first part of your handle.(screen name) You are IMPORTANT, and don't let anyone tell you you're not. We're all here for each other, and each of us can contribute towards each others recovery.
Good luck and I hope to see you both around for a long time.