Don't worry, Grav. Slips come with healing.

Remember, it's progress not perfection.

Grav, i just attended my second group of Sexaholics Anonymous in as many days...i had an intial "oreintation" type meeting on sunday and my first real meeting yesterday.

i know now i have a beast of a monster problem that needs to be dealt with and stopped. and i feel so blessed to have been led to these folks by my new T. I am reading "the white book", the bible for SA,and it is as though the authors have been following me around my whole life.

anyway, even after the first orientation meeting on Sunday afternoon, my addiction(s) started to retaliate. they came on me in a flood of urgency and pressure. my mind is my biggest enemy, just trying to keep it under wraps is going to be difficult.

I don't trust myself with myself...i shouldn't. i have never been able to stop what i do, why would now be any different...i know this is going to be hell at times, at those times when lust rears it's ugly head...i may fall...but what i heard over and over in both meetings, and have read is that it is not uncommon, but don't let it defeat you...start from Step 1 again if that is what is needed, but start again somewhere.

my prayers are with you.

I'm so sorry. I am trying to stay sober.

One thing that helps me is realizing this is a sicknes.. You are making yourself sick by having sex. It's not like DESIRE, it's not like most people, we are doing these things because we want to feel better.

Hope this helps.

JT

I had my first "slip" last night since writing my last posts in 2007. I engaged the services of an escort/stripper. She took off her top and then I finished myself off. There was no sexual contact. I am happy that the slip was not too severe but am still very ashamed. I should have stuck with healing because it has come back to bite me.

Gravitas

I can identify with you slipping. Long time member of SA and i slipped saturday

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