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#196844 - 12/27/07 05:38 PM the unfallen tear
cassidy Offline
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Registered: 06/11/07
Posts: 2
I am encompassed by anger and fear,
Knowing only pain, the unfallen tear,
My eyes have run dry with all the crying Iíve done,
There are not tears left, not a single one,
Broken and beaten by forces too strong,
And no one could tell that something was wrong,
I never spoke out, and I never told,
Who would believe me, I was only ten years old,
Hoping agenst hope, but death never came,
But life was a living hell all the same,
No matter how far I ran, or how high I climbed,
He would always find me every time,
Every Year getting worse and worse,
Until I stopped fighting, and accepted my curse,
After all those years, He got off light,
Dieing in bed one autumn night,
Now I live in unending terror,
Canít even look at my self in the mirror,
For all that I see makes me cringe in disgust,
A monster stairs back, broken and crushed,
And here passes one more long year,
Crying in silence, the unfallen tear.


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#196864 - 12/27/07 07:45 PM Re: the unfallen tear [Re: cassidy]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
cassidy,

I'm glad you found us, and here's another 10-year-old who knows how you feel. Hang in there and take your time getting accustomed to the site. You will find a lot of support and understanding here.

Much love,
Larry

_________________________
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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#196866 - 12/27/07 08:00 PM Re: the unfallen tear [Re: roadrunner]
dancr6 Offline
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Registered: 12/02/07
Posts: 383
Loc: georgia
Cassidy, I know, I know, I know.

Larry is right, you will find a lot of support here. I've been working on issues for 24 years and thought I had things pretty well wrapped up when something I read on this site today brought a flash of another authority who molested me in a home for neglected boys at least 3 and I'm pretty sure more times but the memory just came back today after 44 years being blocked. Thank God I have some experience dealing with this and now I have the added support of MS.
I would say your a godsend, Thanks



Lovingly,
Dan

_________________________
I'm a freeman now, his authority's dead
no pain monger lies in my comfortable bed!

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