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#196452 - 12/23/07 08:25 PM the night before christmas - Triggers
evanesence Offline
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Registered: 12/08/07
Posts: 119
it's the night before christmas
i sit on this bed
the bruises are swelling
there's pain in my head
my clothes in a pile
thrown near the door
blood in my underwear
there on the floor
blood on my face
red as a rose
i'm sure this time
he's broken my nose
i know that it's christmas
it's just hard to see
we have no presents
not even a tree
it's christmas out there
in here it's the same
me like a piece
in your twisted game
the things that you do
make my stomach hurt
you'll probaly beat me
for ripping my shirt
you said it was only
till mom came back
a man has his needs
till he gets back on track
but mom is not comming
and you just won't stop
they tell me it's christmas
and maybe it's so
i hope tomorrow the bruises won't show
it's hard to explain
such a clumsy kid
people always asking
just what i did
did i fall from my bike
or crash on my board
i make excuses
for things that you do
i'll never tell
you know that it's true.
it's a christmas gift
i give
from me to you


Edited to add trigger warning.


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#196481 - 12/24/07 12:08 AM Re: the night before christmas - Triggers [Re: evanesence]
TJ jeff Offline
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Loc: Northern Wisconsin
evanesence,

I cry for that child - he deserved so much better

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#196552 - 12/24/07 07:07 PM Re: the night before christmas - Triggers [Re: TJ jeff]
evanesence Offline
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Registered: 12/08/07
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thanks jeff at least somebody read this besides me ,keep reading it over and over memories suck huh? evan


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#196555 - 12/24/07 08:07 PM Re: the night before christmas - Triggers [Re: evanesence]
GateKPR4 Offline
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Registered: 10/28/07
Posts: 955
Loc: North Carolina, USA
such a sad memory of what is supposed to be a time of joy. I hope you will be able to move on to better days.
love & light
Ricky

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#196583 - 12/25/07 05:57 AM Re: the night before christmas - Triggers [Re: GateKPR4]
roadrunner Offline
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Evanesence,

This is so tragic. I hope that as you work towards recovery you will be able to build new memories for Christmas and other special times of the year. Hang in there.

Much love,
Larry

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#196589 - 12/25/07 09:38 AM Re: the night before christmas - Triggers [Re: roadrunner]
MemoryVault Offline
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Registered: 03/01/07
Posts: 693
Loc: NJ
Originally Posted By: evanescence

i'll never tell
you know that it's true.
it's a christmas gift
i give
from me to you


I'm so sorry. He didn't deserve that gift, and I'm glad you're taking it back.

David


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