Hi, Jason. Sometimes, we just have to do only what we can, regardless of what we feel the social expectations are of us. If you don't feel like you can go to this, then the world is not going to end. You are doing what you need to do. As far as this being this way for the rest of your life, I don't that's necessarily so. As you go further along in the healing process, perhaps this too will change. But until then, do what you can and if you don't feel like you can, then that's o.k. too.