You see your emotional response to all this as a sign of your weakness, but what I see in you is a lot of strength. It takes real courage and guts to do the things you have done so far, and I think it's amazing how far you have come since you first showed up here on the site. This work is rough - no doubt about it.
Like the others above, I'm also impressed with your counselor. You really have a good one, and I'm so glad you are able to talk to him.
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me. (Woody Guthrie)