I wanted it all to stop but nobody could see and I was very good at not telling.
I'll never for get after my second perp my mom telling me to stay away from him because he likes little boys. It was already done, I was about 6 or 7 and the fear of mom dads wrath was instilled in me that day. I never spoke a word of it. And so it was with the rest of the abuse I endured until 16-17 yo.
After that I told one person who did not believe me so I never said anything to anyone ever again until this year. Ditto Robbie, how I ever made it this far is nothing short of a miracle. csa, crime, drugs, alcohol, mental hospitals, rehabs, ...notice it started with the csa? Nobody had a clue. I think at times I didn't even have a clue, I hid it from myself....thats messed up!
I'm a normal person dealing with abnormal experiences.
The greatest discoveries we will find within ourselves.
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