I've been doing EMDR "training" for about two months now, and the first thing I want to say is to make sure you trust your therapist before you begin.
EMDR is very trying and very tiring. You will want to sleep after each session.
My experience has been as follows.
The EMDR started with an attempt for me to find a safe place. I believe this safe place is a tool that I will use in the future when we start to talk about some of the more horrific memories I have had in my past. We've spent 3-4 sessions working on finding this safe place.
The next thing my therapist did bring a minor annoyance into my safe place. For me, that was the phone ringing. She asked me to use my safe place to overcome the annoyance, and when I was successful in doing that, I found that I started to become adept at using my safe place to overcome triggers in day to day life.
The next thing we did was my therapist started to fill out a worksheet asking me about my memories from different times in my life. This worksheet is currently only halfway done, but she is asking me about positive as well as negative experiences. I believe she is going to attempt to use my positive memories to help overcome my negative memories, and with the memories that can't be overcome, there is always my safe place to retreat to when it becomes overbearing.
How has it effected me?
I have become more in tune with my emotions, my memories, and my triggers. Most importantly, I have started to be able to put my finger on why day to day occurances remind me of some unexplained event that happened in my past. It can be quite unnerving at times because of the ease I have been able to not only identify triggers but also coping mechanisms in myself and in others. Really, what has happened is that a great big faucet in my mind is currently wide open, and emotions and memories are streaming out of it at full force. My therapist says that we are going to be working on these memories while we get ready for the next step of EMDR.
This has been a challenge, but I felt like I wasn't going anywhere when it all started. I hope I was able to help.
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