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#195090 - 12/13/07 12:54 PM Brothers
kellygtx Offline
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Registered: 07/11/07
Posts: 412
Loc: Texas, USA
There were three of us boys
- brothers
Kerry was 4 years my senior
and Donnie was 6 years
more than that
leaving me the youngest

Donnie took his own life
I was 12 and he was 22
- I never understood
- I donít think I ever asked why

Kerry was my molester
it started when I was 10
and ended
- abruptly
when Donnie
snuffed out his own life
two long years later

Kerry died in 1992 -
AIDS drained his life
he took our secret to his grave
and I never told

Mother found her comfort
in rum and coke
I canít say she ever mistreated me
but she was absent to my pain

Dad worked to provide
and never saw the signs
or I prefer to think
he never saw the signs

and I did the best I could
to cope with the impossible
so why do I feel
I am the ONLY ONE
Who let me down



Edited by kellygtx (12/13/07 03:59 PM)
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I bid you Peace.

Kelly

The time is always NOW. Breath In. Breath Out. Move On.

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#195101 - 12/13/07 02:51 PM Re: Brothers [Re: kellygtx]
AndyJB2005 Offline
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Registered: 11/14/06
Posts: 1242
Loc: Saint Paul, Minnesota
Thank you so much for this, Kelly. It is so powerful. I'm glad you could find us here. \:\)

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Life's disappointments are harder to take when you don't know any swear words. -- Calvin (Calvin and Hobbes)

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#195157 - 12/13/07 08:45 PM Re: Brothers [Re: AndyJB2005]
michael Joseph Offline
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Registered: 03/11/01
Posts: 2719
Loc: Virginia
have a great day

you said a lot

you went through a lot

so did I

nice to have you here

wish you did not need to be here

wish I did not have to too

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#195340 - 12/15/07 08:41 AM Re: Brothers [Re: kellygtx]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Kelly,

Originally Posted By: kellygtx
and I did the best I could
to cope with the impossible
so why do I feel
I am the ONLY ONE
Who let me down


There are many reasons why an abused boy will see fault in himself rather than in those who let him down. But I guess the most important thing to recognize now, as an adult, is the fact of your innocence. We often read here how it can't be the child's fault, and that's a truth that we need not only to know, but also to believe in. That truth can be one of the most powerful tools we will ever have.

Much love,
Larry

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Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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