No need to apologize... I oftentimes struggle with those paranoid thoughts... not only of the people here but of my family and even close friends. It seems when my brain is set on making enemies mode there isn't much I can do about it but ride out the storm and hope that I don't screw anything up too much.
One thing thats good to know though while you go through this, is that you are your worst critic... I doubt anyone here is thinking ill of you for posting this
Keep posting, and stay strong.