its pretty sad-that i only have this place to go to----------------------nothing else------------at times i feel like sharing and reaching out--------------other times its like why bother-it doesnt mean anything-------------yet i only have this place-to go to---------sometimes i just sit here and stare at the page------------------i think now what do i do----------------sometimes i flip over to porn----------then that gets old---------------------some times i look up other abuse sites -then that gets old------------------------so i come here----------starying at the page----------------------------steve

i took my picture down last week------------no one even noticed------SIGH----------

Steve,

I so understand. This is my only safe place as well. I can spend the day on here doing nothing more than reading topic titles. All I can really offer is that it does get better. Just keep up the good fight.

James

Not a bad place to be Sabata...we are all in it together here....sorry about not noticing the absence of your picture...keep coming back....we are here for you...

I noticed the picture missing...just did not want to ask about it. It seems too personal to venture into. We all have our reasons for pulling pictures, posts, etc.

dont worry about the picture i was feeling sorry for myself

well i pulled it-------------so i wouldnt be noticed-------------and i wouldnt see it--------------i guess i was looking for attention

Steve,

MaleSurvivor can never really suffice as a sole resource, and I hope you will explore ways of getting out into the world and trying new things. It's difficult at first, sure, but things do get better. We just have to take the risks.

Much love,
Larry

Steve,

Many of us are extremely fond of this place, and we don't even notice this fact BECAUSE MS does not demand from us too much. It is so simple to open up a browser and eneter to the DB. It is like a fire in the wood that welcomes every stranger to approach and get warm; one only need to put some "wood" in and talk to other survivors. )

I understand, though, that the feeling of loneliness can brought up sad thoughts about being here at MS and not having elsewhere to go. Hopefully these sadness will end soon.

Alexey

Hi again Steve.

Guess what? You and I have some common issues. Shall I elaborate? Ok, I will. Our lives are empty, and we're not involved in social activities. This limits the quality of our lives. And why do I feel that I have the authority to say this? Well, because, as Larry just hinted at, we're social creatures, we weren't meant to be alone and isolated. If this were not so, then an ideal life would be in an prison cell, where we're fed 3 squares a day, and never have to worry about food or shelter either. You see, it's not just freedom that we value, it's social interaction and becoming involved in other people's lives in a meaningful way. By "meaningful", I'm suggesting that making a DIFFERENCE, in a POSITIVE way, in other people's lives, makes OUR lives more fulfilling.

I see myself every bit as isolated as you, go to work, come home, maybe go to the store, then come home, go to work, come home, maybe go to the store, then come home, go to work, come home, maybe go to the store, then come home, go to work, come home, maybe go to the store, then come home. But I do it for different reasons than you. Frankly, I am ashamed at my underachievements and overall inability to progress and make anything of myself. Alas, I have little motivation to "go out" and "meet people" when the inevitable question comes up, "So, what do you do for a living"? I then have to respond that I'm a short-order cook in a restaurant. And the commmon reply is, "Oh, that's nice", or some other seemingly patronizing toned response. You, Steve, on the other hand, HAVE attained gainful employment to my understanding. So what's holding YOU back from doing anything social? How about joining a gun club? (I was thinking of joining the Michigan Militia heh, just kidding). Are you good with your hands and hand-tools? How about helping out local non-profit groups that help poor families with home-repair projects? In the later example that I just gave, you have an enormous opportunity to connect with people. How about offering regular rides for chronicly ill people to the hospital for treatments and medications? There are all sorts of things you can do with your so-called empty life, but you have to identify what's holding you back before actually address it.

I would suggest that your T help you address what's holding you back from doing some of these things that I've suggested, assuming that they appeal to you at all.