Very moving post. You know, my experience is much the same in a way. I had people all the time who loved me, I just didn't know it, you know? It's like my eyes were finally opened and I could perceive for the first time that it was indeed a fact. What a revelation!
I'm glad you were able to make this breakthrough. How very good for you! Bravo!
Lots of love,
“Life’s journey is not to arrive at the grave safely in a well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, totally worn out, shouting ‘Holy ____…! What a ride!’” ~Hunter S. Thompson