I have been having very high levels of anxiety lately, and I'm going through my medication quicker than usual trying to keep it from making me miserable.
I have been desperately trying to "practice what I have preached", and it is no party. I find that my diaphragm remains constantly tensed, making it nearly impossible to breath properly. If I concentrate I can relax the tension in my diaphragm and breath somewhat normally, but I have to keep checking it for tension constantly. This "diaphragmatic tension", if you will, actually seems to be largely responsible for the anxiety itself. It's like it deliberately tenses up in order to prevent me from taking the deep breaths that will bring me to a calm state.
As I sit and focus on removing the tension from my diaphragm, I am slowly but steadily feeling that it is easier to breath and my anxiety level seems to be dropping as well.
I will try to keep this up and see where it goes.
I'm sure some of you must be familiar with the sensations I am describing.
Guilt and shame have never done any of us any good at all.