Thanks to everyone who responded.
Larry, part of my problem is the fact that I have reiterated again and again to some of these people that it is not okay to yell when in my work area. One guy is constantly coming to sit in the cube next to me to talk on the phone, and he is deaf in one ear so he yells louder than any of the many tools that I need to rely on to do my job (Nextel walkie talkies, two way radios, telephone, other dispatchers). My T tells me that when this happens, since I have said again and again that it needs to stop, I need to get angry. How reaffirming can that be? I actually am allowed to be angry!
But then comes the problem of them talking over me when I try to raise my voice to get them to be quiet as well as them getting angry back at me. Not being able to be heard is a huge trigger for me. Having people yell directly at me is another huge trigger. I can tell myself again and again that I'm not in any immediate danger, but that doesn't stop me from dissing out. The only way to stop the dissociation involves crying.
Truthfully, it makes me feel like a wuss.
Krayoss: I've come to realize how wonderful of a parent my sister is in a lot of ways. One thing I have never see her do around her children is raise her voice. She changes her tone of voice, but she never raises it. The kids know when they reach a certain tone, they had better shape up. I hear you, though. Kids, especially really little kids, have fragile ear drums. Yelling at a child can be painful, and it doesn't accomplish anything. I also cringe when I see a parent yell at a child.
Revenge is nothing more than another way of perpetuating abuse.
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Having a friend who will keep a secret for you is worthless compared to a friend who won't keep a secret from you.