I hope posting your story has helped you. When we tell what happened, in a way we are taking an important step in throwing off the blame and feeling of being shamed and alone. None of what you describe was your fault - a child can never be expected to protect himself, much less recognize what's happening to him. I had been abused for two years before it occurred to me that all this had something to do with sex.
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me. (Woody Guthrie)