Well eating 10 ativan is not quite the same as taking one when a panic attack sets in. I used to be a drug addict too and like you I used to take anything I could get my hands on. I can understand why thecoopstah's doctor is hesitant about prescribing ativan. Like all fast acting benzos like valium, xanax, and ativan are all highly addictive, even if used as prescribed. Many Doctors are very worried about prescribing these medications, and some simply won't. The problem with these medications is even if they are used as prescribed one can become physical and/or menatally addicted to them and then need there dose upped again and again. Here lies the problem.
"Men often become what they believe themselves to be. If I believe I cannot do something, it makes me incapable of doing it. But when I believe I can, then I acquire the ability to do it even if I didn't have it in the beginning." Mahatma Gandhi