are you guys honest with yourself?

Rarely.

That is all part of the process for me. The me I really am...and the me I want to be. Like if I pretend long enough, I might become the me I pretend to be? Even to myself. Denial is such a good friend.
Paul

I don't even know "who" I am.

Jarrad,
I really think if I could be honest with myself, I'd have to find some way to start my life over...get amnesia or something. I'm in too deep to allow myself total honesty...meaning there are too many other people involved. Sucks, doesn't it?
Russ

I'm definately honest with myself. The problem is when I'm honest it's based on being perfect. I'm honestly not perfect so the self esteem takes a nose dive.

Wish I could lie and say I'm just fine the way I am.

Mike

What a powerful question, Jarrad. It's a good one, too.

Am I honest with myself.

I think I am, but facing the truth has been the most difficult part of this entire ordeal.

But what if I'm not being honest with myself? What if I'm still living in a world of delusions?

I don't want to face that possibility.... Not after all of the pain it took me to get here.

Bryan

i try really hard to be as much as possible, basically if i start being self-deceptive i'll end up drinking myself into oblivion, or worse.That's probably the healthy fear i hold on to. I try to encourage other people to help keep me honest...if any of you guys think i'm blowing smoke up my own a--, just quote the post, add "gray donut" to the reply, you can "gray donut" my chat too; a silly phrase maybe, but it's no joke for the long-term consequences for me. At least w/ posting here, all anyone has to do is check on older posts and compare them to the latest ones, see if there's a difference, more honest, less honest, what have you- you might surpise yourself (in a good way too) w/ noticing the differences between when you first started posting, to where you're at now. I'm still wet behind the ears around here, but after many months, i'm sure i'll get curious what i did post early on...

I can tell you with a certainty i am very honest with myself otherwise i'm only kidding myself afterall if "one" can't be true to themselves you damn sure can't be honest with others.

Coop

PS: is honesty a struggle for you....if it,it's ok....you'll get through it and deal with the pain when you're ready.

a hell of a lot more often than I used to be but it can still be a struggle...