I have a problem...I am not exactly able to show emotions to the people I love like my family. Heres the problem...If confronted with an emotionally upsetting event or anything...where any normal person would cry right then and there or show at least some sort of emotion...I go silent. But then when im alone....and I think about it...I am not able to stop crying!

So My question is...Do any of you have trouble showing emotion or anything?

You betcha! For me i think it's a fairly quick assembly of various feelings. A long history of having the urge to cry at times when others would be totally mystified by it hasn't helped. I get "frozen" or numb at the time of the event, my brain's way of making sure i can physically do whatever is needed to respond to the situation, and to keep my reaction from negatively affecting the outcome. There's resentment (as in: "Great, yet another f--ing crisis kicking me to the back of the line again." and, of course, the old-school lessons of "I'll GIVE you something to cry about!", and "Real Men Don't Cry". All these things make it almost impossible to cry in front of others for me. i'll get there someday, but until then i'll just try to be more mindful of my inner life, and to shed the misconceptions as best i can. Think about crying like peeing- if you have the urge, but a long time passes before you have the chance, there's going to be a lot more of it than otherwise! I used to hate myself for feeling pathetic, wondering why when alone i'd often start sobbing uncontrollably. But when it hasn't felt safe for years to cry, or to let others see that you've been crying, this is what can happen. I get immediately uncomfortable when others, especially those i care about, start openly displaying strong emotion, whether it's affection, grief, anger, whatever. It's always too much to handle inwardly at the time; i often make a good show of being the calm steady rock, so that others won't take it as coldness, but inwardly it's usually a whole different story. Depending on the nature of the event, i can feel disassociated, angry, fearful, heartbroken, disgusted, or some combination of any of these. Hope this helps...

I really hear you. Know how you feel too. I have only been able to cry in front of my GF and of course when I am alone. I let all the emotions build up and then watch out. Think my job has alot to do with it. I am in sales so have to put on a "Happy Face" while I am working. The bad days come and go and that is when I would rather be alone all the time.
Thanks for sharing your problem with MS.

I HAVE HAD A PROBLEM WITH SHOWING EMOTIONS FOR YEARS . I SEEM TO JUST BE NUMB MOST OF THE TIME .

I get immediately uncomfortable when others, especially those i care about, start openly displaying strong emotion, whether it's affection, grief, anger, whatever. It's always too much to handle inwardly at the time; i often make a good show of being the calm steady rock, so that others won't take it as coldness, but inwardly it's usually a whole different story. Depending on the nature of the event, i can feel disassociated, angry, fearful, heartbroken, disgusted, or some combination of any of these.

Thats exactly how it is...I couldn't of said it better! My family always joked with me about how I never cared or that I had so many walls to block my emotions. I want to be able to be open and honest in front of them but something blocks me.

Glad you could relate!