Here's something to remember, no ones going to force you to do anything you don't want to do, if something is too much for you, no one is going to fault you for not doing it.
If you want to you can just go back to your hotel if thats what you need to do. Also at any Malesurivor event I've gone to, there has always been someone to talk to about your fears and feelings.
"Being with people that understand you...Priceless"
"and i don't want the world to see me, cause i don't think that they'd understand"
"You don't know what love is...you just do as your told"
"My life has changed. What you take as a simple thing, is not so simple for me anymore"