I feel stuck, like i up against a wall. I have been going to therapy for several months now i have learned alot from it. I put my needs first. I'm learning to except what happenend to me. but i dont know what to do next.

It seemed like when i first came here i was improving at lighting speed, but now its like i am going backwards. I havnt gotten a full nights sleep in two weeks i keep having nightmares, I am upset durring the day. I feel incredibly lonely even though in reality i have all kinds of people in my life that care about me.

Thanks for listening to me........ again.

,Chris

I think thats normal...make some progress...plateau...get comfortable on that plateau....and climb up some more...level out and keep going. It happens when learning a different language too. Chin up!

Maybe it's just me, but it's like there's an anti-me inside, viciously lashing out any time my self-esteem or sense of safety increases...
Maybe it's like a cat at the vet- the only way to help the cat is to hold it still no matter how fiercely it struggles.
Hope this helps

Chris,

Progress in therapy isn't always something we can see and appreciate like you have appreciated the results so far. Sometimes we don't see the real results for a long time, and in some cases moving forward hurts or feels confusing and we don't even recognize it as progress. As sure, sometimes we have setbacks or get stuck. It's all part of the journey.

Much love,
Larry

Thanks every one for replying

,Chris

Hi Chris,
I can best describe the process as a huge emotional rollercoaster ride. There are times when it is very scary. Sometimes the climb is unbearable. Sometimes the fall is so drastic I think I'll never get back up. And, there are times I wish I could just get off the ride...stop taking part in it all.

The big difference, of course, is not knowing how long OUR rides will need to last. And, after a really long time, all we really wish for is a smooth road...no bumbs, no giant curves thrown at us, and nothing scary.

I wish I could tell you when the smooth part arrives...I haven't gotten there yet myself.

But, I hope you get there really soon. The most important thing is that you are willing to do the work. Good for you. Hang tough.

Much Love,
Russ/REJ

Thanks Russ,

Im so tired of all this i just want to be a normal person. ill get there i know i will. i just wish it would come a little quicker. oh well all good things take time right?

,Chris