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#186852 - 10/13/07 12:08 AM Thanks-Forgetting my childhood
onlyakid Offline

Registered: 03/31/04
Posts: 1556
Loc: New Jersey
I just want to thank my perp (brother) for really screwing my memory of my childhood up. I was cleaning up the basement because we are moving and I found my old 8th grade year book. It has references that I don't even remember such as

a handwritten note from this girl in my class who I thought dumped me 8 hours after she had asked me out because she was ashamed to be going out with me. The note says "Jay, Its been a pretty cool year. I don't like the reason you went out w/me. In fact your the first guy thats honestly (told me was written but crossed out) done that to me. But anyway you've been a great friend Love Jodi" I'm also listed as the "Class complainer" and "most talkative". And there are a few references in there about my support for Bill Clinton. I don't remember this. I really wish I did, I guess eventually I will as my mind allows the abuse back but until then I don't

Just wanted to say, "Thanks for Nothin'" to my perp


"Being with people that understand you...Priceless"

"and i don't want the world to see me, cause i don't think that they'd understand"

"You don't know what love just do as your told"

"My life has changed. What you take as a simple thing, is not so simple for me anymore"

#186857 - 10/13/07 01:01 AM Re: Thanks-Forgetting my childhood [Re: onlyakid]
ScottyTodd Offline
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Registered: 02/12/03
Posts: 1561
Loc: Pennsylvania
Remembering can really blow things apart - especially our emotions (anger, scared, regrets, grief over losses, etc.). Sometimes I get angrier at remembering some "god-awful trash!" wishing things had never happened let alone that I am remembering them NOW!! But then I know that "cleaning out the trash - including the corners" of my mind is a part of my journey to a 'healthy' life!! Sorry you got hit with memoies!! I find my memories fade into my life as I can address at the last WOR at Alta!!!


If you think you can or you can't - you're right!.......anon
It's never too late to have a happy childhood!.....anon
You're very normal for the abnormal situation you've been through..............S. Todd

#186872 - 10/13/07 04:08 AM Re: Thanks-Forgetting my childhood *DELETED* [Re: ScottyTodd]
nicky Offline

Registered: 08/24/07
Posts: 261
Post deleted by nicky

i like the rain cause no one knows im crying

a strong man is one who is able to control himself when he is angry
what is your definiton of control?

i lay awake another hour
just like the one before
the shadows play a game with my head
i can't take this anymore

#186992 - 10/13/07 10:52 PM Re: Thanks-Forgetting my childhood [Re: nicky]
saint-of-Lost-Causes Offline

Registered: 10/13/07
Posts: 57
Loc: Michigan
I hate not remembering but i'm terrified to remember!

We accept the love we think we deserve!

#186994 - 10/13/07 10:56 PM Re: Thanks-Forgetting my childhood [Re: saint-of-Lost-Causes]
MarkK Offline

Registered: 04/02/07
Posts: 2567
Loc: Denver, CO
sounds familiar, mtd
i come close to remembering and i have severe anxiety and panic attack
even ended up in the hospital once covered in hives and shaking


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