Just what IS it that "hits the fan"?
The fact that I had wasted 40 years hiding and living a limited life when in reality the world was available at my fingertips and I didn't even know it. I didn't have a clue.
The fact that my life was lived believing I was not good enough, that I wasn't capable of great things.
The fact that I didn't have a dream. I didn't know how. My dream had been stolen from me and I didn't even know it.
And to top it all off, the fact that what I had experienced at the hands of older people who I had thought were my friends was actually SEXUAL ABUSE!
The fact that what I had experienced at the hands of my parents had actually been physical abuse as well as emotional neglect and abuse.
It all came crashing down on me.