I'm glad you posted about your situation these days; kinda sounds like you're anxious in general. Be gentle with yourself and take things one day at a time.
If you are worried about what your ex can see here, you can of course post on the Members' Side, which isn't visible to the public. If you need that feeling of safety, hey, go for it bro. It's okay for us to seek what we need.
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me. (Woody Guthrie)