after reading some of the things here, who am i to even be here complaining and feeling bad about it
Actually, almost anyone here will tell you that while it's natural to make comparisons, we almost always do it to try to tell ourselves that our case wasn't so bad after all. Sort of like an excuse for avoiding the need to deal with things.
On top of that, no matter what others have suffered, your own pain remains very important as well. Why? Because it's yours. If it has affected you, then you have the right to make dealing with it a priority and to ask for the help you need.