Cameron,
I know fear can be pretty powerful, but there are a lot of guys here that want to help. I'm one of them. If you'd like my help, I'd rather keep our conversation here on the main board. However, I just want you to know that Larry (roadrunner) is a good guy. If you send him a private message, other people won't be able to read it. It will just be a conversation between you and him, and he has helped a lot of guys, even younger guys, on this site.
You don't have to come out and talk about everything all at once, okay? Just say what's on your mind. We're here to help.
Bryan
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Revenge is nothing more than another way of perpetuating abuse.
What the world needs now
Is some new words of wisdom
Like la la la la la la la la la.
-David Lowery
Having a friend who will keep a secret for you is worthless compared to a friend who won't keep a secret from you.