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#18309 - 11/07/02 09:04 AM Been a while...
Spider-man Offline
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Registered: 04/27/02
Posts: 57
Loc: NY
Hi all. I feel like a grade A dope. I moved back in July and thought my NOMSV login was tied to my old email address (which changed when I moved - ISP couldn't give me my old account). And I forgot my password.
Imagine my surprise when I finally got around to registering again this morning and am told my new email address is all ready being used...

In the words of Homer: Doh!

Just wanted to pop a note in and say hi. Pretty shocked about the lioncub thing. I spoke to him in a chat room once and he completely pulled the wool over my eyes - he had four or five of us all worried about him because he was saying he'd all ready picked the spot where he'd kill himself, stuff like that.
I don't know what his story is, but one thing I do know: mixed with the shock was a good thing - that the administrator caught him and bounced him out of here. Many BB moderators wouldn't go to the trouble of doing that.
So, thank you mods.
No, not quadrephenia mods.
:-)


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#18310 - 11/07/02 09:09 AM Re: Been a while...
Wuamei Offline
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Registered: 08/19/02
Posts: 2700
Loc: The left turn I should have ta...
Hi Spiderman:

Nice to meet you. I'm Wuame, been here since August. Only stopped by chat once or twice tho. Mostly here on the boards.

BTW, I think Spiderman is cool!

Wuame

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#18311 - 11/07/02 09:21 AM Re: Been a while...
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Registered: 04/27/02
Posts: 57
Loc: NY
Thanks Wuame. Its good to be back. When I have more time, I'll sit down and spill out what has happened to me in the time I've been gone. Christ, feels like I'm somebody else, that much has happened.

And yeah, spiderman is cool. When I was a kid, I wanted to change my name to Peter (as in, Peter Parker), but my parents wouldn't let me).
Weird thing is that I wanted to be certain things (or have certain qualities) that spiderman had/has - spent my childhood wanting to be bitten by a radioactive spider (not kidding - this was serious business to me at the time).
After the abuse, at age thirteen, I was repulsed and terrified by spiders. I'm still working out the details, but it seems after the abuse I deemed myself unworthy.
The other night I managed to watch a discovery channel documentary on tarantulas (among other things) without the customary revulsion.
Of course, over the weekend, I got the DVD :-)


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#18312 - 11/07/02 03:29 PM Re: Been a while...
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Registered: 08/19/02
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Hey Spidey, that's cool!:

I used to play superheroes with my friends and often played at being Spidey--I love his quick sarcastic wit! :p When even my younger friends got "too old" for that (I was about 13, and my mother put me in a children's home), I still fantasized, even drew stick figure cartoons in class well into high school.

I had this thing about wanting to beat up bad people--now I know why!

And I thot the Spiderman movie was pretty cool too. What did you think? Did you see it?

Hey, TC & TTYL (Take Care & Talk To You Later)!

Wuame

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#18313 - 11/07/02 06:10 PM Re: Been a while...
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Registered: 07/15/02
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Sounds like you have desensitized well over the spider thing. Watching that show on tv was brave, but proved you have made some headway.

Keep around, it is good to have the place trult useful for us and your input is important.

Bob

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#18314 - 11/07/02 06:35 PM Re: Been a while...
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Registered: 04/27/02
Posts: 57
Loc: NY
Its not so much that watching the spiderman movie was a brave or hard thing to do - watching that is easy (IMHO, its an excellent film and the only other person that has nailed a comic character like that was Hugh Jackman playing wolverine).
Anyway. I stray.
It wasn't hard watching it. But it was, for a long time, impossible to think or feel I might share some of the same character traits with the character spiderman. Didn't think much of myself. Deemed (without knowing it) myself unworthy of the comparison/aspiration. Thats changing. The last year and a half has been, without a doubt, the hardest time of my life. But I'm getting there. I've been taking my life back a piece at a time. Making new things where stuff can't be fixed. And only now starting to see I'm going to be ok. Yeah, I'm going to have my bad days. But not all of them will be.
Not while I have anything to say about it.


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#18315 - 11/07/02 10:09 PM Re: Been a while...
michael Joseph Offline
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Registered: 03/11/01
Posts: 2719
Loc: Virginia
Glad to see you back!

I hope you are feeling ok and taking good care of yourself, I am doing ok. The summer was difficult for me, I hope the next 12 months show me a bit of happiness that I deserve.

Glad you stopped in at the chat today.

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#18316 - 11/17/02 10:06 AM Re: Been a while...
abcd Offline
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Registered: 10/20/00
Posts: 189
Loc: GA
Hey Spider-Man!

It's Aunt May (jk)...Okay that was stupid. Anyway, I don't know why I never knew you and how I missed your notes (only here sporadically I guess), but they were interesting...though I couldn't find your "story" per se. Anyway, just curious as to where it is--or is that part of the prob--that you don't know what it is. If you don't feel like sharing, that's cool too, but just curious 'cuz you seem to be handling things well which is ideal. Take it easy, and good to hear from you (in my case for the first time).


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#18317 - 11/21/02 09:43 AM Re: Been a while...
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Registered: 04/27/02
Posts: 57
Loc: NY
You didn't find a story because I haven't posted one. Maybe I didn't get around to it, maybe part of me was putting it off. I do plan on doing it, but only when I feel ready. Six months or a year ago I wasn't. Now, I may be reaching the point where I can.
My memory seems to have been coming back together again, so I may remember things I haven't before.
I'll explain what that means when I write the story.
And don't worry - I wouldn't tell it just because someone else wants me to. I'd do it because I wanted to.

Take care.


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#18318 - 11/21/02 12:00 PM Re: Been a while...
Wuamei Offline
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Registered: 08/19/02
Posts: 2700
Loc: The left turn I should have ta...
Hey Spidey good to hear from you again!

Your story: as ABCD indicated, when you're ready.

Also as you're ready. It may be easier for you to share it in pieces rather than all at once.

Whatever fits into your own recovery.

Whatever it is it must be quite a story.

After all you are Spider-man! \:D

Take care

Wuame

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