yeah................tell me Bryan? When he hugged you.........you held on to him didn't you? Yes I can see just how important that is.

Actually, I didn't. I pushed him away at first, and when I realized how good it felt, I just kind of stood there and let him hold me.

I remember he always wore a nice suite to school, and I'm guessing the jacket was quite wet by the time he finally let me go.

Bryan

geez..........

the first time I 'Lost it' in front of an authority figure was as a tall boy in front of my Father and my brothers and sisters and some of their friends.
I was not as fortunate as you.

I was given a forceful spanking, and vicious tongue lashing and I was told to stay in a room alone for a few hours.

everyone there supported my dads actions as good discipline.

but nobody noticed I needed special help

nobody gave me a hug.

I was careful never to openly display such actions again.

I forced it all inside on myself

Bryan,

I am very glad that man was someone who could sense what you needed, and give to you a safe hug as that. It obviously had much impact to you, as you recall it still so strongly now. I wish only he could have help you more, sense more what was troubling to you, to protect you from some of the other of your life that caused to you pain.

VN

Bryan

That is really great. A teacher once put his hand on my head and just rushed it through my hair. Since that day I became almost obsessed with washing my hair every day just in case he would do that again.

My biggest fantasy in life is still the Good Will Hunting scene. Being held close by a man I trust and being told it is not my fault. To a certain degree you had that experience when it really mattered.

Thanx for sharing

Tjaart

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the only hug i ever got that mattered was from nyjah ,made me feel just like you describe . shadow

Shadow? What about Jimmy? What about Sam? What about Sarah? Those hugs didn't count? (after all these WERE real people and kids in your life not just us guys out here in cybrespace).