Nyjah,

I hope that you will be able to find the answers that you are looking for...

I was around 4 when the S/A started - I am pretty sure that I was already being physicaly/mentaly abused at home and so therefore might have shown some kind of weakness that made me more succeptable to him - but I don't think that that was the only reason it happened (at least not in my mind) - I think it happened more because of the opportunity that he knew he had in being able to get me alone and his not being able to control his sexual needs and his mousetrap mindgames (the games he used to play to get out of me the things that he wanted) that he really must have put quite a lot of thought into... - I know that my Uncle took great pleasure in every last thing that he did with me - I was just a pawn in his games - he did'nt care at all about what my 'wants' were - it was all about him...

TJ jeff

I sometime wonder of this. Not that it does any good. Whether it was me or not, it happen, right?

But because of all the abuse and confusion that happen in my home, I wonder if there was the 'sign' on me. Or if it was just the living situation with my family that make it more opportunity for my sport coach to abuse me. I know several other people he had abused, and it what little I see, it is a pattern of broken home, or the child is living away from home for training. Maybe that is just a cue to him that we would be more vulnerable.

Either way, like I said, it happened.

Leosha