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#182454 - 09/26/07 10:35 AM Re: self cutting [Re: caointeoir]
kellygtx Offline
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Registered: 07/11/07
Posts: 412
Loc: Texas, USA
Coop and Caointeoir -

I am not talking to you as someone who does not know the pain and anger you feel. I am speaking as someone who made all those empty promisies to stop for 35 years.

I have the scars on my hands, legs, and butt to prove it.

I threw away blood stained underwear, bleached floors, and made up lies so no one would find out. I am speaking from experience when I say this is a wicked, wicked addiction that you have to reach out and get help with.

PM me, I was there, I know how you feel. Guys, please, PLEASE don't do that - I CARE about you and don't want you to go down my path - because it is a path to no where. I know what the sting feels like and the relief it gives - but that is only replaced by feeling worse later.

I am here for you.

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I bid you Peace.

Kelly

The time is always NOW. Breath In. Breath Out. Move On.

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#182455 - 09/26/07 10:46 AM Re: self cutting [Re: kellygtx]
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God damn I feel so bad...for all of us! I wish I was with you to help you...to help us. How in the hell could we feel that cutting ourselves would be an answer to anything? I feel so much more shame and guilt about this cutting myself then I do about anything sexual I ever did. These posts are killing me!! Fucking killing me!!



Edited by kellygtx (09/26/07 10:46 AM)
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#182456 - 09/26/07 10:48 AM Re: self cutting [Re: kellygtx]
caointeoir Offline
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i'm not lying about it. i tell anyone who asks me about the scars. i wear them, don't hide them.

i stood bleeding in the room and literally screamed 'help me' and all i got was empty confusion, even anger ('why do you do this?'). i did sex, heroin, therapy, antidepressants, tai ji, psychiatrists, group therapy, hormone checks and i'm still nowhere. just nowhere. i'm just somehow at an end. i don't know what else to do.

i guess i'm hijacking coop's thread now... i'm sorry. this pushes my buttons i guess. i'm out for now.

edit: kelly, sorry about that too. probably not the smartest way to come out of hiding from my side. i'm sorry.



Edited by caointeoir (09/26/07 10:51 AM)

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#182457 - 09/26/07 10:54 AM Re: self cutting [Re: caointeoir]
kellygtx Offline
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caointeoir -

Brother I understand - I was in that same room - and I was no where. But you know what, you can take little steps back from no where. Here is a web site called second chance that deals only with self-cutting.

http://www.angelfire.com/bc3/secondchance/

Please, PLEASE don't give up or give in - just for this second, then a minute, then an hour, then a day, then a week, then a month. You can do it - a second at a time.

I love you!!

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I bid you Peace.

Kelly

The time is always NOW. Breath In. Breath Out. Move On.

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#182459 - 09/26/07 11:10 AM Re: self cutting [Re: kellygtx]
kellygtx Offline
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I feel so sad...just fucking sad now...tears just don't seem enough...



Edited by kellygtx (09/26/07 11:11 AM)
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#182460 - 09/26/07 11:14 AM Re: self cutting [Re: caointeoir]
kellygtx Offline
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Loc: Texas, USA
Originally Posted By: caointeoir
i'm not lying about it. i tell anyone who asks me about the scars. i wear them, don't hide them.

i stood bleeding in the room and literally screamed 'help me' and all i got was empty confusion, even anger ('why do you do this?'). i did sex, heroin, therapy, antidepressants, tai ji, psychiatrists, group therapy, hormone checks and i'm still nowhere. just nowhere. i'm just somehow at an end. i don't know what else to do.

i guess i'm hijacking coop's thread now... i'm sorry. this pushes my buttons i guess. i'm out for now.

edit: kelly, sorry about that too. probably not the smartest way to come out of hiding from my side. i'm sorry.


I know you are not lying...and that's what I find sooo fucking sad...you deserve sooo much more.

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I bid you Peace.

Kelly

The time is always NOW. Breath In. Breath Out. Move On.

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#182462 - 09/26/07 11:30 AM Re: self cutting [Re: kellygtx]
thecoopstah Offline
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Loc: massachusetts
so much for how i feel .....i guess it's not about me afterall.........whatever

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#182463 - 09/26/07 11:31 AM Re: self cutting [Re: thecoopstah]
thecoopstah Offline
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now thats a victim statement if i've ever heard one...........oh well it is what it is ......

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#182464 - 09/26/07 11:37 AM Re: self cutting [Re: kellygtx]
kellygtx Offline
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Originally Posted By: kellygtx
Coop and Caointeoir -

PM me, I was there, I know how you feel. Guys, please, PLEASE don't do that - I CARE about you and don't want you to go down my path - because it is a path to no where. I know what the sting feels like and the relief it gives - but that is only replaced by feeling worse later.

I am here for you.


I was addressing both of you when I said you deserve soo much more, and I meant it. I don't think there is anyone in this world that cares more about you on this subject then me.

_________________________
I bid you Peace.

Kelly

The time is always NOW. Breath In. Breath Out. Move On.

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#182468 - 09/26/07 11:50 AM Re: self cutting [Re: kellygtx]
caointeoir Offline
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Registered: 05/26/06
Posts: 37
it is about you.
i apologize.


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