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#182085 - 09/24/07 02:07 PM which is worse?
nicky Offline
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Edited by nicky (04/27/08 02:18 AM)
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i like the rain cause no one knows im crying

a strong man is one who is able to control himself when he is angry
what is your definiton of control?

i lay awake another hour
just like the one before
the shadows play a game with my head
i can't take this anymore

http://youtube.com/watch?v=x4EOw8wPBN8




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#182304 - 09/25/07 02:31 PM Re: which is worse? *DELETED* [Re: nicky]
nicky Offline
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_________________________
i like the rain cause no one knows im crying

a strong man is one who is able to control himself when he is angry
what is your definiton of control?

i lay awake another hour
just like the one before
the shadows play a game with my head
i can't take this anymore

http://youtube.com/watch?v=x4EOw8wPBN8




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#182337 - 09/25/07 08:05 PM Re: which is worse? [Re: nicky]
bp83 Offline
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Posts: 111
Loc: Arkansas
hey I think the question isn't really clear, are you saying does it make any difference if you remember their face or not?

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#182348 - 09/25/07 08:34 PM Re: which is worse? *DELETED* [Re: bp83]
nicky Offline
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Registered: 08/24/07
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_________________________
i like the rain cause no one knows im crying

a strong man is one who is able to control himself when he is angry
what is your definiton of control?

i lay awake another hour
just like the one before
the shadows play a game with my head
i can't take this anymore

http://youtube.com/watch?v=x4EOw8wPBN8




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#182599 - 09/26/07 10:20 PM Re: which is worse? [Re: nicky]
KeithR Offline
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Registered: 10/28/06
Posts: 363
Loc: Georgia
It's hard to answer. I saw his face. I know his face. I loved him. I wish he had taken care of me and not hurt me. It's hard to see him at times. I was able to confront him though. He did apologize. I hate him for doing iwhat he did, but at least he took responsibliy. I guess that part is better than not knowing and wondering if someone is around the corner knowing what happened but feeling safe because of anonymity.

I was never physically hurt so our expierences are different, but both ae traumatic. Both experiences leave fears and doubts and guilt.

Keith


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#182603 - 09/26/07 10:27 PM Re: which is worse? [Re: nicky]
KeithR Offline
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Registered: 10/28/06
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Loc: Georgia
It's hard to answer. I saw his face. I know his face. I loved him. I wish he had taken care of me and not hurt me. It's hard to see him at times. I was able to confront him though. He did apologize. I hate him for doing iwhat he did, but at least he took responsibliy. I guess that part is better than not knowing and wondering if someone is around the corner knowing what happened but feeling safe because of anonymity.

I was never physically hurt so our expierences are different, but both ae traumatic. Both experiences leave fears and doubts and guilt. I hate the whole thing for both of us... for all of us

Keith


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#182606 - 09/26/07 10:34 PM Re: which is worse? [Re: KeithR]
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Registered: 03/31/07
Posts: 635
Loc: USA
it sucks either way...each way has it's own debilitating effect on us.

i know his face...it haunts me in dreams
i don't know his face...it haunts me wanting to know who

it sucks either way...

buzz


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#182612 - 09/26/07 11:08 PM Re: which is worse? *DELETED* [Re: buzz_key]
nicky Offline
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_________________________
i like the rain cause no one knows im crying

a strong man is one who is able to control himself when he is angry
what is your definiton of control?

i lay awake another hour
just like the one before
the shadows play a game with my head
i can't take this anymore

http://youtube.com/watch?v=x4EOw8wPBN8




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#182620 - 09/27/07 12:10 AM Re: which is worse? [Re: nicky]
theatrekid Offline
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Registered: 06/03/07
Posts: 702
Loc: oregon
Yeah i dont know if one is better or not but i would love to know what his face looked like.... some times i try to remember it but i cant.... all i remember is he was big really big... but then again i was little so he might not have been that big.... i wish i could remember though so much.... i suppose if i did remember what he looked like i would just have a ton of other issues to deal with instead. either way remembering or not it sucks


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#182621 - 09/27/07 12:14 AM Re: which is worse? [Re: nicky]
Barney Offline


Registered: 07/31/06
Posts: 236
Loc: Southern Utah/Northern Arizon
Hi Nick,

Great effort in sharing your history. As I read it, it reminded me of having been molested by a number of men in a cult setting. I am sure it was as real for me as it was for you. Keep talking, sharing, till you get it out and done with. Doesn't have to totally make sense or be perfect. Just let it come out and I suspect you are going to be just fine.

B


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