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#181807 - 09/22/07 09:58 PM I can be good
MarkK Offline
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Registered: 04/02/07
Posts: 2503
Loc: Denver, CO
I can be good
I can sit quietly and not cry
I'm a big boy, you'll see
Just give me a chance
Tell me what you want

Really

I can be good

Just don't hit me again, k?


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#181823 - 09/22/07 11:57 PM Re: I can be good [Re: MarkK]
nicky Offline
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Registered: 08/24/07
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i like the rain cause no one knows im crying

a strong man is one who is able to control himself when he is angry
what is your definiton of control?

i lay awake another hour
just like the one before
the shadows play a game with my head
i can't take this anymore

http://youtube.com/watch?v=x4EOw8wPBN8




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#181836 - 09/23/07 01:40 AM Re: I can be good [Re: nicky]
FormerTexan Offline
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Registered: 09/12/04
Posts: 11129
Loc: Denver, CO
Mark, I remember moments like that too.

I like the bear, Nick.

_________________________
List of things ain't nobody got time for:

1. That


If I could meet myself as a boy...

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#182680 - 09/27/07 09:01 AM Re: I can be good [Re: FormerTexan]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Mark,

I remember times like that too, but I was 20 and STILL in fear for my life and yet wishing for death every day. Go figure.

Much love,
Larry

_________________________
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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#184326 - 10/03/07 09:18 AM Re: I can be good [Re: roadrunner]
MarkK Offline
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Registered: 04/02/07
Posts: 2503
Loc: Denver, CO
there are times i wish almost to go back there. at least then i had someone who pretended once in a while.

M


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#184603 - 10/04/07 08:40 AM Re: I can be good [Re: MarkK]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
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Loc: Carlisle, PA
I hear you Mark, really I do. But I did get to the point, later on, where I looked back and found that the pretending was the cruelest part of all.

Much love,
Larry

_________________________
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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#184614 - 10/04/07 09:23 AM Re: I can be good [Re: roadrunner]
MarkK Offline
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Registered: 04/02/07
Posts: 2503
Loc: Denver, CO
maybe ...
i dunno any more
what's real? what's pretending?
why doesn't acting out satisfy anymore?

HOW DO I GET RID OF THE PAIN??????????????????????


m


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#185831 - 10/09/07 09:33 AM Re: I can be good [Re: MarkK]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Mark,

Acting out doesn't satisfy anymore because it was always just a temporary escape, never the solution. On getting rid of the pain, all I can tell you is that for me I saw no way except to face it, walk right back into it, and explore where it was all coming from and why. If that sounds rough, well, that's because it is. That's why we need a good T.

Much love,
Larry

_________________________
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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#185839 - 10/09/07 09:55 AM Re: I can be good [Re: roadrunner]
MarkK Offline
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Registered: 04/02/07
Posts: 2503
Loc: Denver, CO
a good T. yes. i interview one today.
i pray this is the one to help.
i'm tired of walking alone

yeah, i know - i have all you fantastic people here at MS - but you're not HERE, yanno?

maybe. maybe.


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#185842 - 10/09/07 10:00 AM Re: I can be good [Re: MarkK]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Mark,

Have you attended any of the retreats yet. That might be a good way to make personal contact with guys from here in a safe setting. Wouldn't that change the nature of your connection with those guys here on MS after that?

Much love,
Larry

_________________________
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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