Newest Members
Lumpy, squeekinby, rhyoung, Jefferson22, OxfordArms
12369 Registered Users
Today's Birthdays
aleja (40), bc22 (47), DavidMI (40), Forrest_Gump (39), Jay1946 (68), Malc4 (29), mpm01 (49), widpaulman (43)
Who's Online
6 registered (finallyhere, JW1230, OCN, gatoonfanatic, Amandla, 1 invisible), 19 Guests and 4 Spiders online.
Key: Admin, Global Mod, Mod
Forum Stats
12369 Members
74 Forums
63570 Topics
444152 Posts

Max Online: 418 @ 07/02/12 07:29 AM
Twitter
Page 1 of 3 1 2 3 >
Topic Options
#181549 - 09/21/07 10:31 AM This is just too hard...
trusty Offline
Member
MaleSurvivor

Registered: 05/14/07
Posts: 167
Loc: Indiana, USA
Some days I can coast along...

...but MOST lately are just too hard...

...to get out of bed...
...to have a "normal, relaxed" conversation with my wife...
...to pretend to be okay at work...
...to want to go teach my classes...
...to truthfully answer the question "how are you doing?"...
...to not cry when i hear almost any music...
...to not feel numb all the time...
...to just fucking hurt so much inside...

I can't wait for the Hope Springs weekend.

Russ

_________________________
"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Top
#181551 - 09/21/07 10:34 AM Re: This is just too hard... [Re: trusty]
kellygtx Offline
Guest

Registered: 07/11/07
Posts: 412
Loc: Texas, USA
Russ -

Just a (((((Russ))))) for you.

_________________________
I bid you Peace.

Kelly

The time is always NOW. Breath In. Breath Out. Move On.

Top
#181611 - 09/21/07 02:34 PM Re: This is just too hard... [Re: kellygtx]
Dewey2k Offline
Member
MaleSurvivor

Registered: 08/22/05
Posts: 3069
Russ,

I can totally relate. I'm in the same place right now... I wish I could go to Hope Springs, but I can't afford it.


Top
#181618 - 09/21/07 03:30 PM Re: This is just too hard... [Re: Dewey2k]
MarkK Offline
Member
MaleSurvivor

Registered: 04/02/07
Posts: 2502
Loc: Denver, CO
Dewey,

I'm in the same boat - but one of these days you and I will each find the way to make it to a WoR.

You hope for me. I'll hope for you.

Deal?

m


Top
#181620 - 09/21/07 03:33 PM Re: This is just too hard... [Re: MarkK]
Dewey2k Offline
Member
MaleSurvivor

Registered: 08/22/05
Posts: 3069
Deal.


Top
#181631 - 09/21/07 06:58 PM Re: This is just too hard... [Re: Dewey2k]
BJK Offline
Member
MaleSurvivor

Registered: 08/02/07
Posts: 1526
Russ,

I had one of those days today as well, but just because we're getting better at handling them doesn't mean that they get any easier, right?

I've learned to take these days as victories. If I wake in the morning without the desire to face the day, I remind myself at the end of the day that I did it.

Just know that you have my love and respect.

Bryan

_________________________
Revenge is nothing more than another way of perpetuating abuse.

What the world needs now
Is some new words of wisdom
Like la la la la la la la la la.
-David Lowery

Having a friend who will keep a secret for you is worthless compared to a friend who won't keep a secret from you.

Top
#181800 - 09/22/07 09:22 PM Re: This is just too hard... [Re: BJK]
trusty Offline
Member
MaleSurvivor

Registered: 05/14/07
Posts: 167
Loc: Indiana, USA
Hey, Bryan,
Thanks. You're right...at least I'm not running away from everything any more...I am hanging in for the fight...even when I know I can't win...winning isn't everything. Just getting out of bed has to be good enough some days.

Honestly, I'm a little embarrassed with my post...tried to delete it but it was too late. I'll make it some how...thanks to support from people like you and Dewey and Kelly.

Good luck to you, too...hang tough.

Russ

_________________________
"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Top
#181809 - 09/22/07 10:00 PM Re: This is just too hard... [Re: trusty]
sabata Offline
Member
MaleSurvivor

Registered: 08/08/06
Posts: 1948
russ i hope things get better-------------------enjoy hope springs------------------------------------steve


Top
#181840 - 09/23/07 08:31 AM Re: This is just too hard... [Re: sabata]
cat lover Offline
Member
MaleSurvivor

Registered: 10/09/05
Posts: 89
Loc: Denver, Colorado
It sounds like things are hard for you right now. We're here if you need us.


Top
#181852 - 09/23/07 09:23 AM Re: This is just too hard... [Re: trusty]
BJK Offline
Member
MaleSurvivor

Registered: 08/02/07
Posts: 1526
It's easy to be embarassed by posts like these, especially later when you don't feel like you felt when you posted it anymore.

It's all good, though. No need to be embarassed.

Bryan

_________________________
Revenge is nothing more than another way of perpetuating abuse.

What the world needs now
Is some new words of wisdom
Like la la la la la la la la la.
-David Lowery

Having a friend who will keep a secret for you is worthless compared to a friend who won't keep a secret from you.

Top
Page 1 of 3 1 2 3 >


Moderator:  ModTeam 

I agree that my access and use of the MaleSurvivor discussion forums and chat room is subject to the terms of this Agreement. AND the sole discretion of MaleSurvivor.
I agree that my use of MaleSurvivor resources are AT-WILL, and that my posting privileges may be terminated at any time, and for any reason by MaleSurvivor.