... you care because you have a soul and are a good man with a lot to share.
i see SO many problems with this i have no idea where to start. i think the one thing i CAN agree with is i have a soul. i know that because i can feel it dying. but the rest ... they're nice words, Larry - but please forgive me if i don't believe them.
I know you don't believe them, and hey, that's fine. I didn't believe such things for a long time myself, and I honor and respect wherever it is you are and however you feel right now. You have to be true to your own feelings.
May I suggest that you DO explore this a bit - if you can - in whatever way that feels true and right for you? Not to convince you, Mark, but just to see where you are.
Just an idea.