someday i'll get to do it to somebody else ...
this is a valid reasoning??
honest question guys - i do NOT get this at ALL!
mark, these pranks arent done with cruel intentions and believe me when i say no one does anything or goes so far as to really hurt anyone, its just a lot of bullshit ball busting because im the low guy on the totem. the seniors get respect you know? like i said they were all probies at one time and had to fall in line, be shown the pecking order, its just the way it is, the way its always been, it might sound messed up but if they didnt pull pranks on me and remind me that my job right now is to cook, clean and haul equipment i wouldnt feel wanted there. and look at it this way, when we're on a call and heading into an inferno, i know damn well who my cap is, who i take orders/direction from and i know i can trust him, not only that but i know these guys have my back on the job. and yea some of this shit does bother me, a lot, and it all has to do with the abuse but like i said in a different post, this job is more important to me than my feelings about my past.
when i say someday ill get to do it someone else, is it a valid reasoning? yea, it is, its tradition, im not gonna hurt anyone or make anyone feel like shit mark but am i gonna trick him into standing behind the dumper so i can soak him? hell yes! not everything has to be related to abuse, not everything IS abuse, some things are just about tradition, comradere, bonding. im not gonna feel bad about it, im not going to let the fucking abuse shit stop me from feeling normal for one time in my fucking life!