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#180730 - 09/17/07 09:29 AM Just saying hello...
Jaysen Offline
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Registered: 06/14/06
Posts: 680
Hey, I've been out of the hospital for a week and 3 days, got back to work, got some shit in order, tuned up my bike and my guitar lol.

Things are so much better.

I wasn't really sure what to do with myself without the drugs and alcohol but I'm finding good healthy things to replace all that. Going in was probably the best thing that ever happened to me, I learned more in 6 weeks than I did in 20 years. I'm feeling stronger everyday and I'm finally able to say with confidence that the abuse was not my fault and I don't have to beat myself up for it anymore. I'm not just saying that, I believe it in my heart.

Anyway, it's nice to be out and have the chance to start a new life.

Thanks for the support everyone...

Jay


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#180738 - 09/17/07 09:45 AM Re: Just saying hello... [Re: Jaysen]
Hauser Offline
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Registered: 11/12/05
Posts: 2962
Loc: United States
This is great new Jaysen! What kind of facility was it? A rehab facility?


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#180764 - 09/17/07 11:06 AM Re: Just saying hello... [Re: Hauser]
buzz_key Offline
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Registered: 03/31/07
Posts: 635
Loc: USA
Jaysen,
Congratulations man!!! It is good to hear the hope and postitiveness in your post.

"I believe it in my heart"

AWESOME!!!

buzz


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#180780 - 09/17/07 12:43 PM Re: Just saying hello... [Re: buzz_key]
pain4ever Offline


Registered: 04/05/01
Posts: 1032
Congrats Jay!!

I am so proud you got the help you needed!

Now its time to start living a life much different from your old one....thats tough.

Brian

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Peace and Tranquility all depends on your frame of reference.

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#180781 - 09/17/07 12:44 PM Re: Just saying hello... [Re: buzz_key]
dannym Offline
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Registered: 03/24/07
Posts: 543
Loc: Boulder, Colorado
Wow... sounds like a whole new view of the world! Congrats! So you are coming up on your 8 week Soberversary!!!! Celebrate!

dan

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"You should listen to your heart, and not the voices in your head."

Marge Simpson

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#180799 - 09/17/07 02:34 PM Re: Just saying hello... [Re: Hauser]
Jaysen Offline
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Registered: 06/14/06
Posts: 680
Originally Posted By: Hauser
This is great new Jaysen! What kind of facility was it? A rehab facility?


It was a rehab / hospital where once you check yourself in, or once someone else checks you in you can't get out until the docs say you're okay. Kind of like being in jail only no drugs, no prison tatts and no sex. Oh and they actually care about you too! lol. It was great, truly a great experience. I fought it at first but gave in and accepted the fact that I needed the help, it was the best thing I ever did. The only regret I have is that I didn't make the decision and check in myself... it took a series of very drastic events that lead up to a friend basically hauling my ass over there. This is the longest I've ever been sober and it feels pretty damn good. The best part is I actually like myself. I can look at myself in a mirror, I can get on my bike and drive down the coast without worrying about an accident, I wake up in the morning with a clear head and memory what happened the night before, I don't find any tattoos, piercings or marks on my body and wonder where the hell I got them, I can eat and not feel sick or guilty and I don't feel like I have anything to prove to anyone anymore. The place itself is pretty isolated, even if you were able to break out and jump the wall you'd have a real hard time getting to a main road before they found you! lol. The first few weeks there is something I never want to go through again, withdrawl from a variety of drugs including heroin and alcohol, there was nothing I could do but just go through it, nothing in the room to hurt myself with, no way to get out, just had to deal, no choice. After that it was daily therapy and group activities, supervised lunch time, endless meetings with the therapist, nutritionist, etc. AA meetings, NA meetings... you name it. I met a ton of really good people there, a lot of sad stories but a lot of happy endings.


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#180885 - 09/18/07 03:28 AM Re: Just saying hello... [Re: Jaysen]
Muldoon Offline
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Registered: 05/30/02
Posts: 1428
Loc: St Paul MN
Jaysen sounds like you made a major step forward. Congrats Tom

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#180914 - 09/18/07 09:09 AM Re: Just saying hello... [Re: Muldoon]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Jay,

I am so happy for you. I knew you could do it - it was all just a matter of taking the decision to do what's best for you. It's so cool to see that you're on your way.

Much love,
Larry

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Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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#180954 - 09/18/07 11:57 AM Re: Just saying hello... [Re: roadrunner]
Jaysen Offline
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Registered: 06/14/06
Posts: 680
Thanks Larry. On my way to where I don't know but it's a hell of a lot better than where I came from!

Jay


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#180964 - 09/18/07 12:19 PM Re: Just saying hello... [Re: Jaysen]
KeithR Offline
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Registered: 10/28/06
Posts: 363
Loc: Georgia
Awesome, Jaysen \:\)

I'm so glad for you. There will be times in the future when things can get very hard. Remember what you've learned about yourself. Remember that you are not alone. Remember the good things that are now. Sometimes it's hard to feel, but you know you can, and you know you can get through those feelings without going back to bad habits.


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#181150 - 09/19/07 08:31 AM Re: Just saying hello... [Re: KeithR]
Jaysen Offline
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Registered: 06/14/06
Posts: 680
Thanks Keith. Hey, the only bad habit I ever had was blaming myself...


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#181192 - 09/19/07 12:03 PM Re: Just saying hello... [Re: Jaysen]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Jay,

I want you to PROMISE me you will print out this post and post it somewhere in your place where you can see it every day:

Originally Posted By: Jaysen
Hey, the only bad habit I ever had was blaming myself...


Maybe not the only bad habit ;\) , but you shed this one and hey, you're on your way!

Much love,
Larry

PS If I don't get my promise I'm coming to CA to search you down and nail the post to your gas tank. \:D

_________________________
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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#181197 - 09/19/07 12:20 PM Re: Just saying hello... [Re: roadrunner]
Jaysen Offline
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Registered: 06/14/06
Posts: 680
Hey Larry, keep your hands off my bike!

Okay, so it wasn't my ONLY bad habit, but it was THE bad habit that caused all the other bad habits, lol

Yeah, sure I promise, not sure where I'll put it though, I already have a shit load of post its all over my apartment with little sayings to remind me.... and not for nothing but with people like you around, how could I forget \:\)


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